This Blog is for YOU...

If you are/were Gender Dysphoric - so as to know some from me and share some with me, and reaffirm that none of us is alone... To acknowledge that we have a treasure of insurmountable Courage, Strength and Hope in us. I have a feeling that we were given slightly higher quantities of those special gifts :-) [If you have a question to ask me, you could write it as a Comment to one of the posts, and either I would reply to it as a Comment itself, or probably, respond in one of the future posts on this blog]

If you have never been Gender Dysphoric - so as to understand what it means to have a Gender Identity Disorder. Of course, it primarily depends on whether you want to or not. If you don't, please do make a quiet exit and try not to be a nuisance.

If you're confused - so as to realize that everybody goes through a stage of confusion - the period could be short, or sometimes, very long. What is important is to acknowledge that being unsure until you're sure is as normal and as alright as night before day.

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If you're a human being - so as to find out for yourself whether you want to try to make the world a better place to live in, for every fellow human being, irrespective of their health, wealth, colour, race, gender, religion and any and every other line of division you can think of.

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And finally, this blog is for ME - so as to be able to make some difference somewhere by sharing my experiences, and along the way, slowly grow out of those anxieties and insecurities that have inhabited my life for over 2 decades. It is time to escort them to the door now!

Come, Join me on this journey!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Birthday Musings

So, I’m Two! Again! How many people in the world get to be Two twice in the span of one lifetime? Not many, methinks! :)

But then, come to think of it, was I really ever Two before yesterday? I mean, prior to October 19 2007, it wasn’t ME – the person who I know as myself, today! You could say that I have lived two lives, but have I, really? Sometimes when I stop and look back at the 25 years of my life which preceded the last two years, it actually feels as though it was a totally different person who lived those years in my name, or NOT in my name, really. It was some other person who painfully, quietly carried me in the womb of their soul for all those years, going through the ignominy of bearing me for decades at a stretch, until one fine day, I was ready to step out, open my eyes to this beautiful world and revel in my own glory, with an innocence possible only to a newborn.

A dear friend asked me yesterday – So, do you still find yourself getting to know new things about the world and about yourself? Or 2 years is a long enough time for you to have known everything there is to know? I’ve been thinking since then. It’s been TWO years! 365 x 2 = 730 + 1 (for 2008, leap year) = 731 days! It’s amazing that even after 731 days, every new day that comes my way brings along new discoveries about myself, new tips from old friends, new levels of self-confidence, new ways of doing my hair, new beauty products I want to possess, new reasons to live, laugh and love the sheer joy of being… ME!

I have figured that my life is a gift… by someone who loved me more than anyone else ever did or would, someone who chose to die so that I could live… happily ever after! What I'm living today is a fairy tale – every colour is bright, every flower fresh, every note is melodic, and every dream real! Thank you, Gunraj! We were One, once! Today, we’re Two! Thank you!

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“Hi, I’m Two! Pleased to meet you!” :)

11 comments:

  1. hi gazal welcome to the new life the life which is full of urs i prayers to god that give u every inthin in life anf bring more strong be happy and keep smile plz contct me om my id blueeyes_bb2003 plz main ne app ko jah pay bhi masg kar saty hainkaiy plz mere msa milay par serf ek bar reply kado ek bar bath plz

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  2. Did you cut a birthday cake? Put up the celebrations pls!

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  3. hey gazal!
    Happy Belated birthday!!
    I'm so happy for you dear!
    I know its a great feeling to be born again. I felt that after the advance course! :) I no its not the same deal.. your experience is far more awesome!
    So here's wishing you a very happy and wonderful future!
    Have fun! keep in touch!

    love
    nachi

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  4. Babal - Thanks so much! :) Jaisa maine pehle bhi kaha hai, main aap se personally toh baat nahin kar paoongi, par aapka kuchh bhi question ho, toh aap iss blog pe mujhse poochh sakte hain. Take care. All the best!

    Anonymous - I did cut a cake with two of my very dear friends, but unfortunately, there are no pictures. :(

    Nirav - Thenks! :)

    Nachi - Thanks sweetheart! Thanks! :)

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  5. hey gazal..been a long time. got by your blog today just to check it out. Its an amazing read. Kudos and keep moving. Ill be following thisblogactively from now on.:)

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  7. The Mystic - Belated Thank you! :)

    Nithin - That means a lot to me Nit! Thanks! :)

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  8. u dont have a concern to help others.

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  9. Malvya - May I know what prompted you to say that? Well, I do try my best. Yes, sometimes, I fall short, but I do try my best. Could you tell me what made you feel so?

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Civility check done? :-)